My mum doesn't like art.
She doesn't encourage me to draw.
She doesn't want me to practice.
My sister's always say I'm rubbish.
They say I'm not an artist, so I should stop trying to be.
I get upset all the time because of this. And maybe this is why I've been failing to draw anything for a while, even little doodles...
What's the point in art? If I get no encouragement, inspiration and I'm just plain no good, why should I bother?
What's the point?
I don't want people to love my art, they don't have to, but I'd like some encouragement sometimes.
I never get it.
And it makes me upset and I cry because of it.
My mum doesn't want me to do art. And she thinks I can gain nothing out of it.
My sister's getting a mini laptop, when she has a perfectly good normal laptop. Her mini laptop is £200, and she's going to use her birthday money to get it.
So when I brought up the idea of buying a tablet off of eBay (I had found one around the price of £200, running Windows XP, with a pen-touch screen, and in good quality, from a seller with 100% positive feedback. And it was buy it now too.) she refused, and said many things like:
*It could be a scam. (It isn't. With all that feedback, it's not)
*No optical drive. (You can get cheap USB ones.)
*I have no use for it. (Drawing, duh! And other things, too)
*I can't use it for art classes, if I ever get into them. (1. She would never let me go to art classes. 2. If you can draw good on a tablet laptop, you can draw good on paper. A tablet pc simply gives you less mess)
*You're 11! (The time-old parental excuse for when their children want something. I am 11. I love art. And I want to buy something to help me develop it.)
*You already have one of those drawing-tablet plug in ones. (Yes. I do. But, my reasons for wanting a tablet pc are: 1. My current laptop I would prefer to use for games. As it is better for games than for art. 2. It's hard for me to draw on it, and I would prefer to actually draw properly, not on a board which projects what I draw onto a screen.)
*If it's the same as drawing on paper, draw on paper! (My pencils are all ones that do not sharpen correctly, as she wouldn't buy me any proper pencils. They are gritty, they do not draw correctly, and they are just plain old horrible. Plus, I don't want to waste paper. I'm trying to be Eco-Friendly!)
*You're just too young. (She seems to think I'm like one of those stereotypical eleven-year olds who can't decipher up from down. I know more about computers than she ever would.)
*We don't know how old it is, whether or not it'll work or if it's damaged. (Hmmm...Funny, the eBay seller is actually a business, and all the other customers seem to have gotten their goods delivered, intact, and in working order. Surely the seller wouldn't have suddenly decided 'Hm. Let's sell a bunch of junk and laugh about it!')
*It costs too much! (She's buying my sister a mini laptop, at roughly £200. It has already been ordered. My sister used her own money. So shall I. And the mini-laptop is only for MSN...Like that will ever get her anywhere in life. I'm wanting a thing that I can use to help me practice art. If anything happened, when I'm older, like I ran out of money, and so did she, and there was no way I could get any from anywhere else, I could sell art, but only if I could practice. If not, well, I'm stuffed, really...)
You get the picture. I've looked at reviews, scoured the web to check, read a lot of the seller's feedback, etc. But she STILL won't buy me it. It's not like it costs that much. She never listens to me.
I'm not asking that you try and help.
But you can if you wish.
You can give me ways to convince her to buy me the tablet, not that she'll listen to me. She'll just shout at me when I open my mouth and tell me to go away.
But also, if you have anyway to help encourage me to do more art, I'd be really happy, because I'm getting no encouragment at home.
Thanks for reading...