Dear SadClown,
I think You may work as a professional painter and sell Your paintings, all wonderful and colourful.
The first three with the "lotus" or the nymphaeae flowers (or water-lylies) seem an "expressionist" version of Monet paintings on the same subject.
The pear is wonderful. It got a volume by means of colours only!
The sunflowers are almost as powerful as Van Gogh ones!
Finally, You go very fast painting!
Many compliments

I wish You to earn a lot money and meet and have Your father with You to become HappyClown!